Dear 30-year-old self,
Back here, you were
writing as a 23-year-old someone who just read an article from Thought Catalog
and decided to make a letter for you to read after ahm 7 years? Then, poof! Suddenly, there you are. Well, hello. I don’t know the reason why
you stumbled upon reading this post instead of doing some unequally important
and matured errand you might surely have right there. Seriously, older self, why?
Well. I suppose, you still got that blogging nerve. Ok, continue to have that.
Anyway, right now, right here, I'm writing you a letter for you to still remember the hopes that you have 7 years ago. Hmm. So, keep reading.
I hope you are not slouching any
longer. Of course, because right now, I’m suffering from a horrifying back ache
I couldn’t have should our younger self set some goals on maintaining a right
composure. I mean, having one means everything right? You can’t go straight
with life while having a crooked back and trust me; you wouldn’t want to
experience this kind of torment. It’s like being burned in the fire of Mordor.
I hope you’ve outgrown this situation because what the he*l?
I hope you are living your dreams
with a job that you find great and tolerable. I’ve learned that it’s not really
about getting what you love all the time but there must also be some glitches
like loving what you have and letting go of what you cannot have. I hope that
you are now contented with the things that you are doing on weekdays; that you
don’t do some chores for your job on Saturdays and if you do, I hope that you
are paid he*l big. But of course, I hope that amidst your contentment, there’s
still that desire teamed with actions for your career enhancement. So, you
planning to take a Master’s Degree now? How about that specific certification?
I hope you didn’t ditch those ideas yet.
I hope that you are enjoying your
free time; that you’ve started taking that tour around the country whether
alone, with someone or in a group. I hope that you’re bringing with you an HD
camera along with a chic hat for you to always be gorg. I hope that you are
still collecting souvenirs yet much more memories of you having real fun
because that’s what travelling is all about.
I hope that you are still brave
on love; that no matter what happened; you still give love one and always one
last chance; that you still have that faith in love, in real love, in love that
God has promised you. I hope that you are learning the fact that in order to
truly love someone, you must first love yourself because only then that you can
give love freely to anyone else. I hope that on countless times, you’ve asked
His will regarding that matter and on countless time, He’d assured you that it
will be worth it. I hope that, well, aside from the fact that he’s already
late, he arrived. Yes, finally. He came and makes your day a bit brighter; your
mood a little lighter, hugs you whenever you’re lonely and makes you an
essential part of his life just like what he is to you. I hope and I pray that
you aren’t afraid anymore to give more for love’s sake because you are assured
that it wouldn’t be used as a one sided advantage. I know you can give more for
love, I know that you are worth it. So if it happens but I hope and hope and hope it won't, that well, he’s not there
yet, just keep on praying and doing what you think is good for you. You can’t
just sit around waiting for love to find you. You must move and walk and run
and maybe you will stumble upon him on a mudded road with your running shoes
dirty with mud and he will give you some sort of witty comment regarding your
mudded running shoes and you will have that sort of clever response about muds
and yeah, I’m making a mudded story here but you get my point, self.
Just enjoy life first and don’t get discouraged. You might also want to listen
to a Civil Wars song called To Whom It May Concern. It’s worth listening and
humming and singing in the shower if you happen to have showers. So smile and
do not take this thought away from you, I mean, don’t you ever dare to forget this:
make God the center of a relationship and it will be worth it no matter what.
Ok?
I hope that you’ve been a legit
bff to somebody. Well, that bff of yours now, I hope you still have her. I hope
that you will go to any lengths just to be one he*l good of a friend. You know
full well who I am talking and you know that she’s worth keeping. If it happens that some sort of unreasonable reason might make
you treating her like nobody, trash it. You’ve gone through a lot of that before
and she has proven her worth a lot of times too and I think it’s your turn not
to be so self-absorbed anymore. Fight for your friendship and you will be
delighted with the results over time. And oh, it’s ok if she has lots of
bffs. Don’t go freaking out and play jealous. Friendship must not be stingy,
right? I hope that you are keeping up well with your high school and college
bffs too. Don’t say no to their invitations if you only have reasons such as
you hate the world enough to stay alone that night and you don’t want to be
with people because you hate the world enough. Seriously, self, grow up. Say
more yes to your workmates. Initiate. Give a little talk to some strangers. Be
open and friendly but keep a good and healthy company.
I hope that you are giving your
family the support they needed. Financially, of course. There’s no bad thing
about bringing them pasalubongs and treating them to some fancy restaurants. I
hope that you are buying them gifts. But most of all, I hope that you are still
finding time to bond with them. Perhaps, you’ve been too busy with your
career and your other relationship but do well remember that they are your family
and your parents are no longer getting young. Spend time with them. Bring them
to a healthy vacation and give them a lot of reason to feel young again.
Please.
Be a good sister. Don’t be a
bully or bitchy. Just be a good sister. Just so we’re clear.
I hope beyond all hopes that you
are still treading the narrow path. Remember the vows you made back when you
were still a teenager? You promised that you will follow Him. Definitely follow
Him, passionately follow Him. I know, a lot of compromises might come and might
make you want to withdraw those words that you said before but always and
always think that He’s always and always there. His grace is enough so don’t lose
hope. God is greater than everything, even your setbacks. You might think that
you are not worthy but it’s not about you, self. Again, stop being so
self-absorbed. Remember, it’s about Him. Let Him use you. Let His name be glorified
always. Remind yourself when you are doing well that it is by His grace. Take
off that crown and put it back to Him. Remind yourself when you are, well, not
doing well, that His grace is still enough. Put off that burden and take it
back to Him. I mean, you couldn’t go on life with a crooked back and a heavy
heart. The reasons of such are too much slouching and waywardness. Self, be
happy with a greater joy. Not with mere pleasures this world is offering. I
hope, regardless of what time we are in now, that we both are smiling, at this
precise moment, because we are both nodding to the fact that there will never
be a joy greater than a life fully surrendered to Him. So, go on to that
ministry. Find a local church community if you haven’t found one yet and be
useful for His glory.
Opened a bank account already?
Yes, you must. Saving money might be a struggle but what’s not to start? It’s
for your own good. Invest for something good.
I hope you stopped buying cheap
clothes that will only get ugly after a few laundries. I hope that you are
still eating oats, drinking tea and cold coffees. There will never be us if we
don’t do that cold coffee addiction so just go on with that. I hope you are
still finding some time to read books, sketch and chuckle over some internet
jokes. I hope that by now, your IG account is not only filled with great shots
to prove your excellence in photography haha, but also with captured moments
that are worth keeping and collecting.
I hope that you still have that
zeal to learn something new. Don’t be rustic over old things. Explore.
And self, be nice, always. But be
wise also. Stop caring about what others think because it really doesn’t matter.
We know that.
I know I might be talking a lot
of ideals here but that’s what I want you to remember. That’s what I want to
remember when I reached 30. Make me proud, self. Keep these thoughts alive.
With lots of love and xoxo’s,
The 23-year-old you
